wanna you back,CL

heyyy, i have changed! yes, i did change a lot. i am missing my old me. sooo, the case is, i have no inet connection now. and i am too lazy to search for a cheap yet good inet provider. moreover, i wouldnt be here in august and sept. so, i just need to hang on for these two months with my laptop alone. i was looking again my old folders, photis, videos, and others. heyyy, i was so "thicked-skin" in 2007. ohmygod. i could even sing at one of my friend's mom bday celebration.okayyy, now i doubt where the courage came from. i also realised, i was so chubby at that time. actually, just like me now. the difference is, i didnt care what people think about me at that time. i eat whatever what i want. it's really a bliss. but now?? why should i hear other's opinio donn, huh? everytime when i finished a pack.of chips or whatever bad , i feel guilty. d*mn!!! i always eat the most among my sisters. when they eat a bowl of misop, i should have two bowls! yes, it always happened. when my sisters get 1 piece of fried chicken, i always get 2, or at least i got the best part ( tigh part. hahaha )

i never think so far. i did everything that makes me happy and tried not to hurt others. i am missing my old time.especially my dancing friends. i am thanking them from the bottom of my heart. you are so great guys. hmmm.. yes, tjey are indeed good friends. it has been quite long time since we knew each other, huh? time flies! thanks for being my friends.

so, another memory is.. actually it's a great one. but,... it's the past. now, we are facing our different ways. my friend who used to be closed to me is now like a stranger. we lost contact at all. somehow it's quite funny. what people said is true, we never know what tomorrow will happen, sooo, appreciate what you possess now. crying over the spilt milk is useless. all left behind is just memories.

hahahhaha. it's some effects of no inet connection. lol. sad, missing, laughing, etc etc. all expressions mix in one. =)

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu

#somebody please slap me and bring me back to the chubby cl