hurted (again)

arghhh... this headache is really liyal loyal to me. have consumed medicine 3days in a row. but it's still there. i feel like my head weight more than it's supposed to be. it feels like going to explode soon. yeah... i am not as fit as i think i am.

what has made me so depressed like this? dont know actually. i have no spirit at all. the fact that being hurt again by people is really ...... i wanna change myself to be such an evil person. yeah, everytime i am being hurt, i said to.myself i should be pickier next time. but i failed. not a single time i have ever succeed with that plan. as the result, i am the only one who is going to cry because others' acts. huwaaaaa.... pushing myself to studying and studying.. you better be good, brain. no much ime left.

#whom i should talk to now? i do really need somebody now.

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu