canibal

wenn es moeglich waere, haette ich die Menschen gegessen! (Konjunktiv II) wekaweka. and again, i get myself at the lowest point of spirit, lowest point of everything. i eat like i dont eat, just swallow all the things after i saw there is no food anymore. i dont feel i did eat. i am thinking the things, but i just dont know what i am actually thingking of. i am reading the slides, got the points slowly, but ( again ) i am so afraid. iwannacryoutloud. yesido. ireallyneedit. screaming. i never hate myself before. but now, i.do.really.HATE.myself.to.the.MAX. i am the one who couldnt control verything well, even mySELF. H.i.l.f.e...

fear.anxiety.blackout...


the score i got from these 2 semester. penurunan nilai pun terjadi T.T
G1= 1st semester, G2= 2nd semester, V= total from 1st and 2nd semester

final exams are coming soon

sabbe satta bhavatu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu