Keep lying to myself

just can lie to myself just to keep me stay calm. i can do it, i can do it. i am in 'sebel' state now. my groupmate promised to search some daten and send it to my email. i am witing for it till now. but i think he has forgot about it. seems like i have to do it by myself for the 3rd time. but i thank him for today. he asked me to teach her physik mechanik that i have no idea as well. i haven't reviewed it at home. but, i just can tell him how to solve it. thank you for the chance he has given to me. automatically i learn as well. hehe. though, i am too lazy to write physik praktikum report... moreover i'll have exam next week. just jia you deh. hoho

skype-ing with lay more than 3 hours. haha. what we were talking about? most of them are FOOD FOOD and FOOD. hahahhaa. keep talking about jajanan pinggir jalan di medan, donat tusuk abang2 yg teeet teett, tempe goreng yg betapa indahnye dmakan stiap hari, ikan goreng yg krenyes krenyes, setandan pisang yg murah meriah yg enaknye bukan maen, hahahaha. she is going back to medan in november or december, while rinie is in june july. doubt when can meet each other again. 3 years minimum? arrgghhhh.. going mad when i am thinking about this. fortunately technology develops day by day. skype, oovoo, msn, thanks to them.

and about the title above, hmmm... i don't know exactly what i am thinking. but the fact, i am lying to myself. i simply know that i can't, i ain't able, but i am forcing and telling that i can, i am able! too complicated. is an ear available just for listening ?

btw, i am waiting for ... this is the only reason i have to cheer myself up. i will think about it whenever i am down. hope it will arrive soon. but i hope the time stops when it comes. hahaha. how selfish i am, huh? na ja, nur Spass. okay, have a nice weekend guys

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu