Back to school

i randomly think that i should have started to slowly change the way i am talking. D*mn! my mom told me long long ago, but i just can't be another person but me myself. *sigh... what exactly is my problem? i talk to people so DIRECT, without filter every single words. what i think, than i just speak out loud not realise that another part will get hurt by my words. arghhhhhh... i really have to take an action.

i apologize to everyone who was hurt because of me. i am truly sorry. but when you really do know me guys, i think you'll get what i said. i wonder how i could make friends back when i was at high school. i mean, how come people never complaint? maybe i am just too rude when i start living in Berlin. i am not open to anyone anymore. i make some spaces with them. i feel more comfortable to talk to girls now. maybe it's because age factor. the older a girl is, the more careful she must in having a friendship. i could barely find girl-friends in my hometown, most of them whom i used to hang out at school are boys! but that's really pure friendship. who says there can't be a real friendship between girl and boy? i do have that! and i hope it could last long. as for now, thinking that i'm 21 (or even 22) already, i better start thinking my future. leaving living alone in a foreign country??

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu