another stone

"Life is never flat" -Chitato-

yes, it's indeed true. i told my mom that my life is just so-so here, very flat. but today, i realise that my life is never as flat as i think. just for the case for exchange programme application. there were lots of up-and-down in the process. but everything's screwed up in an interview. i just got a letter telling me that i FAILED for the interview. i dont feel like crying. as soon as i read it, all my mind is thinking about my family. i have disappointed them. they have been always supporting me, but i can't make it. at that second, i know, my life is a path that contains of stones. if i fall down and hurt myself, instead of crying i should wake up , walk again, and be more careful. yes, eventhough i failed this time, it doesnt mean i am a loser! i havent given up and i dont plan to give up.

i do admit, i also disappointed for not being chosen. another 10 minutes passed, i feel there is another best choice being prepared for me. as i dont go on exchange, i have the possibility to complete my bachelor on time. i have been too selfish all this time, i wanna both exchange and on-time-graduation. but it turns that i cant get both of them. soooo, i'll be in berlin for the coming 2 years. let's try again next time

i learnt a lot from this. and for my family and friends who have supported me all this meantime, thank you very much. sorry for the disappoinment =(

#ma, rang nin shi wang le, zhen de dui bu qi o

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu