i was defeated yesterday. and i admitted it. i lost. i was waving my flag showing up that i lost. i was crying the whole night. but fortunately i am home. at least there is always my mother who cheers me up. the only one i could really hang on. she said i am not her lil daughter anymore. i should grow up and face how cruel the reality outside. there is noone so honest and good as i think. there is no such things as perfect as i think. i need to be hurted this time. the next time it will be easier for me to face the cruelty. honestly i want to be the cl who keeps thinking that world is fulled of nice things and people around me are really my bestfriends. but i need to change all of that. i need to learn not to believe to others easily. not to be too NAIVE.
i promise to myself. to pass my life wisely. take every decisions carefully. be the mature cl that could do big things in the future. so guys, when you try to hurt me, i am not the cl who will spend the whole night to cry anymore! i really really really mean it. and when i say really three times, that means i do mean it! fighting cl!
sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu
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