Oh GOD

How bad I am. I am such a bad human being. I do mean it. i am browsing this day, bought some things online that i need to bring back home ( medan ), did window shopping ( in case i want to buy belated birthday presents for my sisters ), browse and browse again. found out some summer sales of popular branded things ( fossil, zara, mango, esprit, etc. ). i thought i need to buy some 'girly' things in case i am 20s already. but you know what, suddenly my mind changes.

i think about some social activities. visiting orphanage, old folks home appear in my mind. i should have to save money to do such activities rather than doing online shopping!!!! ja, i do change my mind. not buying any branded things for myself ( though i have bought some for my sisters T.T ). i looked for some infos about some orphanages and folks homes located in medan, while seeing those pictures, my tear's flowing down. i am really blessed. thanks GOD. though i am not the daughter of millionares or billionares, i lack of nothing. tough i am far away from my hometown, i do not lack of the passion. BUT, although i lack of nothing, i do COMPLAIN often. i do ENVY, seeing my friends could do whatever they want easily. i do CRY whenever i face some problems. how PITY i am, huh?

the children who dont have their family by their side could pass their days happily,
they do not complain,
they become stronger and stronger day by day when they meet some problems,
they do not have complicated thoughts,
they pass the days with smile,
playing with others,
have no worries,
they also have their big dreams for sure
step by step they will make it true

how about me, huh? do I have the right to complain all the time? absolutely NO, a big NO!!!!

time to go home is coming soon, but uni's stuff drive me crazy. still waiting and waiting. i dont feel like going home now. moreover when i am thinking about my nothing-to-do-days there. just sleep eat, sleep eat. =.='

but I am excited now. what I need to do is: search more infos about orphanages and old folks homes. will visit it as soon as i am home. i absolutely need some help from medaners. hmmm... doubt who could help and join since my friends have their routinities back. as usual, itu urusan belakang de, ntar baru pikirin. hehe ( typical CL ). hope for the best. start planning....

sabbe satta bhavantu sukkhitata. saddhu saddhu saddhu